ladies never lose composure
i will become a lady.it’ll be my summer resolution. (i will need to pack my wardrobe too i reckon) need to decide what i want and what i dont quite want and then inform my friends.and then hope that they’ll buy my old clothes so i can shop moreeee. (but i still feel that everything’s quite very essential /: )
ahh cant wait for may 3.
then i’ll leave it all behind and experience a whole new world. will i miss home? i dont think so. do i feel bad about it? yes. somehow i never miss home,dont like staying at home. i just always feel fat,ugly and disgusting when i stay home for a day. be it to study or to just bum around, i will need to step out of the house somehow. it’s suffocating. it’s tiring. it doesnt feel as right as it should be. maybe this is not my home. it is just where im housed at. gotta find my home. before that, ive gotta graduate from university, get a job, earn a good pay, then i can find my way home.
you think i can bypass this physical home?
what do you feel when people praise you?happy?yes i guess. aware? very much so. what do they want out of it? i dont know. but i know it’ll surface eventuallyyyy. is there an altruistic praise? maybe, rare though. it really depends on who praises you. intentions, doubts, second guesses. oh boy! really tiring this game is. if you ask me for advice or whine about it, i’ll tell you suck it up that’s life,you cant escape it. i know how tough it is to try to escape.
oh another note, it’s SUMMERRRRRRRR :D :D :D take the chance, be an escapist, for a day or two. be warned though, it is rather addictive.
stay safe friends!
xoxo
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