WHY DO I CARE ):

19Mar10

i dont get it,why should i care,why would i care,it shouldnt bother me that he’s not texting nor replying nor picking up my calls.like disappearing,but then why do i care.i wish i werent thinking the worse of it.maybe he doesnt want to pick up my call,worse still something bad happened.
i reallly realllly cross my fingers and hope he’s prolly just ignoring me.i’ll turn off my phone now,maybe when i turn it on after 10mins i’ll receive something.

and then school isnt exactly working out for me now.a B+ cos i made 3 grammatical mistakes,just dont make sense to me.this is disgusting,i hate the grading system in school.i hate how everyone’s caught up with their gpa.practically,it makes sense,no doubt about that at all.but if you ask me,there’s more to life than that and it’s a pity not everyone can indulge in life and still allow their gpa to be tiptop.

im distracted.im not thinking straight now.im just waiting for that one text,or maybe a call,or for him to just appear online.just show me that nothing happened.
there wasnt supposed to be anything.i hope there still isnt.otherwise,i lose.

xoxo