i cant believe i just wasted an entire saturday doing nothing.and yeah i didnt choose to waste my day actually.im so disgusted with how i actually allowed myself to be manipulated to spend 20 bucks on nothing.nothing will come out of nothing indeed.AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.ok im sorry.im pissed.
pissed because i wasted my time, my life, wasted on waiting for the world to end. i dont know what should happen now. what is it supposed to be. i dont know. i wish i were ignorant, literally brainless and stupid. then i wouldnt need to think. i wouldnt even know or bother about the world laughing at me. i wouldnt care if every ostracised me. i wish i lived in a cave, alone. i wish i lost my memory of everything. it’s just not worth it anymore. i want to forget and disappear. think if anything would be different as it is. i think not.
this world is not worth living in.
goodnight.
